Just to follow up with a few new numbers: I was 114.9 before my workout, but that dropped to 113.1 after. I expect a good place to start is to drop the salty carbs. I'm not interested in seeing the north side of 114 ever again. Enough said on that, from here on out, I just include a number in my post.

I've so much else I want to write, and don't have in my schedule. There's a theme about people leaving other people because they love them, and nothing's wrong. Dr. Peterson has suggested if we had utopia, the first thing we'd do is break it. I think for some it's in that light.

The other is on repentance, the Jewish idea being that you don't really repent until you are faced with the same situation again and you choose differently. In my mind anyway, this is a part of what's missing in completing World War II.

Europe will not be whole again until it sees a proud, powerful, perhaps even unreasonable, nationalism that, when stressed, rises above blame and hate, war and genocide, to create something greater than we imagine.

Inside of this is a presumption that the world simply has more meaning when you have a personal stake in it by way of your own children. And for all the stress and loss of momentary pleasures, your individual outcome will be better if you have kids, as will your national outcome.

But proportions must also be maintained. It's the line between generosity and self-sacrifice. But you'll give yourself to something anyway. It might as well be something worthwhile, something with a future.